For several weeks, I have felt a deep need to pull back from the normal noise and activity of my biz/networking life, and spend some time beside the peaceful waters of reflection (metaphorically speaking – actually, a lot of the time has been spent in front of the outdoor fireplace!).
The results have been surprising and productive.
When endlessly churning to create new business and strategize new opportunities, there is little time for mind and soul rest. Psalm 127 has been my companion during these days – meditating on the truth that human effort only carries so far, and that only the active blessing and protection of God really makes us prosper.
I am discovering that, for many years, I have striven to carry out all the roles I’ve been expected to fulfill. Up to a point, that’s OK. But sometimes, that can come at the cost of being…me.
For weeks, I’ve not been able to articulate the upwelling of…something…going on deep in my heart. I’m not sure I can even now. But I have a sense that it involves re-learning to be all that I am, not everything I’m expected to be (by everyone else or by my perfectionistic inner voice).
It feels a bit like breathing fresh air. Like springtime. Like a trail heading in a good direction, even if I can’t see exactly where it’s going.
So, if I seem a little quiet, don’t worry. It’s reflection season.