“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart” -Psalm 37:4
This verse has been sticking with me for a few days. Mainly because I think I really didn’t “get” it for so long. Conceptually understood, no problem – but actually experiencing it? Maybe not so much.
Truth be told, it’s very easy to default to delighting in lesser things. To whit:
1. Delight yourself in being right. Ah, always a temptation when dealing with issues of truth in religious matters. And while it’s important to think and believe in a clear and correct manner, it can also become an idol. The goal, instead of God, is right-ness. Very me-centric, and ultimately repellent to others.
2. Delight yourself in having your act together. Closely related to #1, but here, the main focus is ordering behavior and words to try to (vainly, I might add) achieve some sort of sanctified perfection. Doing it right, instead of delighting in the only One who can impart righteousness. Again, it becomes all about me. Ugh.
3. Delight yourself in stuff. Sometimes you want to pat yourself on the back for monastic self-denial. When that doesn’t work, it’s easy to swing over to delighting in food, drink, sex, vacations, possessions – whatever leads to immediate good feelings. This ends up making the gifts an idol, while neglecting the Giver. More self.
The fact is, our default setting is Me. Self. We’ll corrupt anything. It takes a supernatural work of God to loosen our grip from me-centered delights, and to begin to look at Him as the most delightful. Then the rest of it falls into line, and God is free to give us the desires of our heart. Because He’s our first desire.